I read a lot of books. I read a lot. Lately, I've been reading a lot of Sci/Fi books - and the genre covers a lot of "odd" stuff. Yesterday, I finished reading "Darkness of the Light" by Peter David. This is a book I would never have purchased, but I was sent a free electronic copy of it from Tor Books, so I decided to give it a try. I have several of this author's books and he has a great way with sarcasm and wit; this book was no different in that regard. However, I came to a paragraph that just completely hit me. Here is the passage:
"That is what life is, you foolish little Markene! It is a game with players on all sides, each engaging in his own little maneuvers, and each trying to accomplish one simple goal: to be the only one left standing at the end of it, before he is himself swept off the board by the great gamesmen who look down upon us all and laugh on our foibles. If you do not start thinking... if you do not begin to play the game yourself, rather than wait for me to explain all the rules... you will be removed from play sooner that you could possibly anticipate. It will be done far more rudely and with far more finality than just being tossed in the water."
I think that as I was growing up, I was always waiting for someone to tell me the rules. I am a rule follower - and if I'm not sure what the rules are I sometimes shut down. I still wonder sometimes just what the heck the rules are and why isn't everyone following them. One of the hardest things for me to learn was and is to just jump in to the game of life and be myself. And accept that there really aren't any rules and yes, it isn't fair, but if you just wait for it all to be explained then life will pass you by. In the end, it is your own self you are stuck with - and trying to be what everyone else wants you to be will leave you empty and sad.
Sorry for the serious moment... I've just been thinking about this all night and I don't know if I explained it very well. But, it feels good to get if off my chest, so to speak.